What I won't do is sit here and act like having needs or wants and not being able to do what seems like simple things on your own feels good. Whether the money ain't adding up, the disability is a struggle to deal with or the person just won't cooperate, it's no fun.
Yet as believers we are called to depend, to ask AND believe, to walk by faith and not sight, to praise even when were in a storm.
To be quite frank, it sounds like a beautiful love story when I hear seasoned saints say how much they depend on God and how they know who their help comes from, but as a 28 year old, babe in the faith, and new mom of 2 in 2 years, I'm still shaking off the things I grew up hearing about 'not having to want for nothing' and 'getting it done on my own.'
So it's natural for the battle of spirit and flesh to rise up when my husband and I leave our 6-figure comfortable lifestyle in Washington D.C., move to LA 1 week after getting married with just enough for 2 months of rent, no home, no jobs, no immediate, and 5 months pregnant.
Let's not forget we did all of this because we fasted and God told us to move to LA. Period.
There were no further instructions, just move to LA. Oh wait, He did say one more thing, MARRIED.
I'll share those details in a later post, today I want to focus on how we've continually humbled ourselves and learned to receive even when it's hard to wait, believe, and expect.
Through this 3 year season of what seems like forever ,receiving has taught us: (1) so much of our confidence was in ourselves and not God, (2) God is the one to ask and depend on, (3) waiting builds steadfast faith and hope, (4) God uses others to stir up miracles, and (5) worship cancels out worry.
You may feel like having a need makes you less than or maybe you wonder if you're being punished when you see there are more bills than budget, know God works all things out for your good (Romans 8:28) and the death of your ego (Corinthians 15:31) is necessary to live a righteous life that can testify of the miracles God is doing today through you!